Hair Update {7}

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I know I promised an update every two weeks, but that obviously wasn’t the case over the holidays.  I think it has been about a month since my last update.  I’m sorry, hopefully nobody lost sleep over this.

My hair felt cute for a while after my last cut, but now not so much.  It feels like it is growing, so that’s what keeps me energized to continue.  I just want it to be long already!  I whine, I whine.  I think this is the hardest stage that I will go through, because I just have to tough it out.  There is simply not much I can do about it or with it.  I have to keep telling myself that I am not hideous or strange looking just because my hair is super awkward…and also that nobody really cares, except me.  (Surprise! I am my own worst critic!) It’s unfortunate that our society places so much importance on unrealistic ideals of beauty and personal style.  I don’t like this, and I certainly don’t like subscribing to the ideals, although I know I do to some extent.  Don’t we all?  I had so much faith and confidence tied in with my short hair:  It was my tiara, the thing that made me stand out from the million other girls with long hair, the thing that made me unique, that made my eyes pop, that made me look edgy or foreign.  Now that I am getting no sort of vain fulfillment from my hair do, I am learning a lot about myself and my perception of my own beauty.  Though the realization process can be painful, it is not all bad–in fact, self-deprecation is fun and so is embracing one’s dorkiness.

I took these photos when I was getting ready to go Christmas shopping, so they are about 3 weeks old and my hair has probably grown about a centimeter since they were taken.  I was feeling silly, as I do often, and fanning out the sides behind my ears.  I went into the kitchen to pose for Matt.  He laughed at me and asked what my obsession is with Jim Carrey.  Of course, he thought I looked like Ace Ventura.

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Go figure….Last time it was Lloyd Christmas from Dumb and Dumber, before that it was Nic Cage!  Now Ace.  Seriously?!  I had to laugh out loud about it, to keep from crying.

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I’m sexy and I know it.

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There’s just no end to this madness!

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XO,

Your prenatal-pill-popping-maniac friend, Tobi