A public test of willpower
*Disclaimer–I’m not sure this post/series has anything to do with bliss and, in fact, probably has more to do with self-contempt, insecurity, and vanity. Vanity, to me, seems like a false bliss, in that it is an outward pursuit, rather than an inward journey. But, that’s kind of what this series will be based on…my natural, human egotism. It also has to do with my personal willpower, which I have serious doubts about. Phew! Glad I got all of that on the table! Now that your expectations are sufficiently lowered slash altered, I can proceed, and you, well, you can either continue to follow my silly journey or quickly close your browser window.
I have had very short hair for the last 5 years and despite the ignorant men in my family’s homo-phobic comments, I have loved it, embraced it, and really grown to claim it as my trademark. My husband loves the short hair and prefers it to the longer locks I had when he first met me. Finally, not that it really should matter, but the general consensus of people in my life, is that I just look better with short hair–it’s very ‘me’.
So why would I ever want to grow my hair out? It’s a fair question. One of the answers is that, deep down inside of me, I’ve always wanted Brazilian supermodel hair. You know the type: long, flowing, wavy, shiny, generally luscious. I inwardly feel like I would look more feminine and sexy with long, wavy, red locks and
that maybe I could get a boob job and become a Victoria’s Secret model that might be good for my self-confidence and also a welcome change.
The second reason I want to grow it out is so that I can eventually cut it again and donate it to Locks of Love. A couple of years ago I vowed to do this, along with my nieces…and I quit, while they continued to follow through with their promise. In my defense, I started with a LOT less hair than they did.
The final reason I want to do this is to prove to myself that I CAN DO IT. ’Nuf said.
Below are photos I took at my last trim. Isn’t my hair awesome? Why am I doing this again? No, Tobi! Don’t try to talk yourself out of this, before it’s even started! I will continue to have damage-control done regularly. You see, I have mullet-tendencies. The back of my hair grows three times as fast as the front, which would’ve been awesome in 1985 or if I lived in Europe, but as of now I’m just not into the Joe Dirt look. Also, I have incredibly bushy, thick tresses, and will need a de-bushing every six weeks or so.
My goals are simple:
1. Don’t trim more than a quarter inch, every six weeks.
2. Take a prenatal vitamin to aide in hair growth.
3. Enjoy each stage, trying to find fun styles/colors for the awkward phases.
4. Take a photo and post every two weeks on my emotions/progress.
5. Don’t cave and get it all cut off 3, 9, 15 or 24 months in.
Wish me luck, I’m going to need it.